Back @ Work

I never officially took any time off from work as I work remotely most of the time and working provided a welcome distraction from the thoughts that were too hard to deal with at the time. But now it’s fair to say I have my thoughts under control again, well with the help of some tablets anyhow. After seeking the professional advice, I mentioned in my last blog, I have decided to focus on the short term, say maximum one year ahead and don’t allow thoughts of the long term cause any anxiety. I no longer hide in my work and have started to look forward to the weekends again, which two months previously would have never been possible.

Today and tomorrow I have some building inspections to do and together they mean a round trip of just over 500km, so I’ve decided to break the trip into two days and stay down on the Peninsula (Victoria Australia) overnight.

This has shown me just how much grief can have an effect on someone, for those who know me they know I will usually go anywhere in the world at any time without issue, but last month I couldn’t have managed a simple drive with a night away in a motel without it being very stressful. Now it seems I’m finding the strength again slowly, though I’m still feeling very lonely here tonight, I managed to get some noodles and go down to the beach and relax for a while. I’m counting this as a win today.