Two Years In

The two-year marked arrived and things had stagnated, no slipping backwards but no movement forward, the positive feelings from the last blogs has disappeared and if anything some depression starting to creep back in. I was having trouble thinking clearly and constantly worrying I’d forgot to do something which would lead to stress, this had to stop, it was time to take some sort of action but what?

After some consideration, it seemed the only thing I really had control of was the medication for anxiety, maybe if I don’t need it but keep taking it, my brain fog will never lift? So, not being one for half measures I decided to stop them completely and see what happens. (I did tell those close to me what I was going to do and if they see something negative to please tell me.) The plan was to take a couple of days off and go camping and stop the tablets in a no stress environment. This worked well and I had a very relaxing few days. On return to day-to-day life the I found the fog lifting quite quickly and a week later there was a new me standing up straight and looking the world in the eye.

This was so profound that I made a telehealth booking to talk to my GP about it and he told me that he knew the day would come for me, it was always a matter of when. The next ‘check’ was to talk to a psychologist and get some advice. The advice I got was that at my age it is usual to leave behind the active interests and take up deep thinking interests, where your brain is fully engaged but the body can rest and maintain its energy. (This is quite appropriate for me as my leg injury has worsened and I’m told may never get any better.)

Summary from all that is embrace the fact I have reached another step or phase in life and focus on the original intent of this blog and connect with Julie in spirt. I’m making a commitment to myself to get back to regular blog entries as I move forward.