A Spirit Visit

I’m sure I wasn’t alone in the house today.

Before Julie left us for another place, we discussed what would happen to her family when left, as I like to say ‘unsupervised’. We all agreed that it would be a good idea if my son and his fiancé stayed at the house with me for a year or two while they got married and found their first home of their own. The house we built together over forty years ago needed an upgrade, which we had started a couple of years ago when the double whammy of Covid and Cancer struck still needs to be completed so we could consider it a project and add some value to the property.

To give some background to this, for years Julie had wanted to upgrade the kitchen but every time we started to talk about doing it we would say, why don’t we have a big holiday instead and get back to it later. Finally the time came to say no, we will do this now and so luckily the best design choice was to build the new kitchen at the other end of the back room so we still had a working kitchen if anything were to slow the process down. Got that spot on didn’t we, between covid and cancer things came to a grinding halt. Julie’s dream kitchen was three quarters finished and staring us in the face every day with the grim realisation that Julie would never get to cook a meal in there, I could see it in her face, she was so brave but it hurt so much and in the end we didn’t even speak about it. The only consolation was that we knew we had done the right thing and had many great holidays which gave us more quality time together than we might have had otherwise.

Anyway to get back on track here, this week is the first time I have been able to even think about getting the ‘plan’ started and have been clearing out stuff we don’t need and getting things completed in the kitchen. To get some advice on how far we should take this project to get the best value when we do move on, I called up a real estate person and asked if they would come and do an appraisal on the house and give their advice on what to upgrade. They were very responsive and said they will come on Monday to look through the place and write up an appraisal. This is where things get strange, I said thank you and see you Monday and hung up, then suddenly it felt like someone walked right through me but slowly, I went cold and every single hair on my body stood on end, not just ‘the hairs on my neck thing’, no, everywhere and at the same time and it lasted for maybe five or more seconds then faded away. I sat down and noticed I was shaking and my hands were trembling. A few minutes later, all the energy I had had in the morning drained away and I had to lie down.

So here’s the issue now, was this Julie’s spirit and even though Julie had agreed to the plan, was it too much for her right now too? Did she think we were leaving the house? What was she trying to tell me? When it happened I was stood in the same place in the lounge where other communications have taken place with other family members passed over the years, it seems to be ‘the spot’ for want of a better word. I wonder if anything will happen on Monday, I hope the agent doesn’t end up being chased out J. The thing is there is no doubt in my mind that a physical thing happened to me and I was very relaxed about what I was doing at the time, so I can be as sure as I can that I didn’t have a panic attack or something similar. Also I have never had that feeling before so it’s not something that happens to be normally.

My take out from this, is that this is the strongest sign so far that we still have a connection and with time hopefully we can develop it.