The Birthday Girl

Julie’s birthday 2nd March, funny how I can remember it now when I’ve struggled for so many years. (I can almost hear Julie in the background smirking at commenting on that one.)  I’m not sure how we will go with it, so time once again to ‘circle the wagons’ and stay close with a nice family dinner, which seems to be our go to plan now when things are tough.

Last year, though none of us would allow the thought to have space, we knew already we most likely only had one birthday left, what we didn’t know was that we had already used up our last Christmas with Julie. I’m so glad Julie wanted a day out to the country for a birthday lunch and look through the shops and the old railway yard, she really enjoyed the chance to be free for a day and told me on the way home she had had a great day.

Tonight as I sit and write Julie has made her presence known once again which it’s comforting, but in all honesty there are times where I just want to take time off trying and take on those dark thoughts and feel angry and depressed and sorry for Julie and all the other useless thoughts and empty out the stress so the sun will shine a little brighter tomorrow. I think maybe tonight is going to be one of those times so I can enjoy that birthday dinner tomorrow.

I have permission to post a family photo of the birthday trip :-)